OH CRAP.
Below, you will find a list of things that I’ve learned this past summer as well as early this fall.
- I’m pretty good at crossing rivers and fishing. I was one of two who caught a fish when my friends & I went fishing.
- Random adventures are the greatest.
- He was the perfect acquisition as a result of my lowered inhibition. I’m happy I met him. He made me aware of so many things I wasn’t before. Things such as:
1. Friends with benefits isn’t just friends who have sex. It’s friends giving free rides here and there, friends hooking it up with free weed. Where were my benefits? Or was my benefit the sex we rarely had? I wish I could commend him on his excellent play on words. What a douche.
2. My heart got broken. I’m kind of happy it did because it woke me up. It made me realize what I was doing. I was sweeping everything under the rug and not dealing with it. Of course I could say I was dealing with it by drinking, but that’s not dealing with it at all. It’s just trying to hide it by having a supposedly good time. I will stop overdoing it when I drink and I will not drink when I am feeling down and out.
3. I will stop pushing people who want to be in my life away; and I will stop trying to pull people closer to me, because, well… I guess that’s the same thing; pushing them away. I can’t say much more about that.
— Okay, done with that; other things I’ve learned:
- I shall always read the fine print on things and read them over carefully. I missed a deadline and I think I may have reeeeally screwed myself over.
- I never listen. I always learn things the hard way. Maybe I will start listening when people tell me things.
- Our Lady Peace (the band, you fools.) can fix anything. I love them.
- I love my family waaaayyyy more than I put off and I’m sorry for that. I’m kind of an asshole, but you guys all know that already… hahaha
- I can still smile when things have been going wrong, and I can still pull positive out of it. Case in point? Everything choice you make, no matter how small, has a result… and every result is some sort of lesson, even in the tiniest way.
- I do want to live.
